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I have a "friend" who shows up once a month. She turns my world upside down, over and over again.
I am a good person, caring and sweet, but when she comes to visit, I could rip off your head.
She takes no prisoners, foul words she does spout, I try to keep the words in, she lets them come out.
People don't understand me, or what this is about, to have this creature inside my head.
I despise who I am, half of the time, I feel sorry for my daughter, family and friends.
There's no way to describe it, for those who don't know, it's a living nightmare, she really needs to go.
~Neysia Manor, Rest in Peace

Sunday, February 1, 2015

PMDD Quote of the Week

~I need my cycle. I can't stop the anger....~


  1. I hear you, if this quote refers directly to you, I feel you, so this is a you're not alone comment and THIS TOO SHALL PASS! Yesterday in the middle of my office day, I sank, internally for no conscious reason (obviously, most of the things that seem to be kicking my ass seem to hidden in my subconcious) but I digress, the sensation running up and down from my genitals to my heart cavity felt so physical, so dense, so dark, so desperate, there was a kind of void I don't think I can eloquently express it. I spent most to the day holding back tears, because I had to stay at work to complete my hours (currently I'm one of those who makes a living from paycheck to paycheck and rent was due). So I swallowed hard most of the day, despair set in and I just wanted it over...I hadn't thought suicide in years, but last night I did and it scared me because I really, really, really don't want to quit life, I just need for this fucking ovaries to die already and let me be, in a stable mood for a while. So, when I left work , went to a park and cried for a long, long time, got home popped a couple of sleeping pills and knocked myself out (not recommended), I just coulnd't bear the sadness I was feeling, and I felt it for about nine hours too long....Today? fine thank you, like yesterday was nothing....I just don't know how much I have left in me to keep getting up, I felt truly exhausted even with the knowledge , with the certainty that it was going to pass...again Liana...thank you for letting me vent and if the quote is about you , I pray you got your period
    ps: luckily for me the rages are very few and far apart (so there is progress, just not fast enough)

  2. I want to thank you for this website.

    Just over a year ago I fell totally in love with a lady who was, most of the time, the best friend I have ever had. There were a few difficulties and complications, as is not unusual in life, but I just couldn't understand why she repeatedly dumped me, then took me back a week later. After three such events a friend pointed out that it happened every four weeks.....

    The fourth event was the final one. The strong feelings she said she had for me seemed to vanish in a matter of hours.

    Sadly, I knew nothing about PMDD - I'd never heard about it until last week. The accounts on this site sound so familiar! I've wrestled with my thoughts, doubts and conscience ever since, so I feel an immense sense of relief to know what we may have been dealing with.

    We haven't seen each other for about ten months. I try to renew contact from time to time, hopeful of just being good friends, but she is unresponsive and has obviously decided that it is best to be separate. Knowing what I know now, I feel that I love her even more. I'll keep trying, but I won't pester her.

    One thing I would say that may help ladies embarking on new relationships: if you find yourself feeling strongly about someone, tell them all you know about PMDD sooner rather than later. If they are a worthy partner they will do whatever they can to work along with you. And if they aren't worthy, well, you may as well find out sooner than later....

    Be happy!

  3. 14 months passed, and now we are friends again. Even being friends is difficult. She seems to be unaware of how much she changes, and how irrational she can sometimes become.

    I'll keep trying, because I love her so much, but I can't really see a happy ending.